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December 22, 2009

Yesterday I shared a lift with an aunty on crutches who was muthafucking rude.

The lift stopped several floors down and in came a lady with a pram. Apparently this aunty thought the toddler in it was too big for prams and asked the boy, “How old are you, boy? Aren’t you too old to be sitting in a pram?”

I thought she was just being friendly until she turned to her friend and said in a tone dripping with disgust, “Look at him. He’s so big already. It’s so embarrassing!”

And then she rattled on and on about how Singaporeans are “so ignorant it’s disgusting”.

At that point I was already seething, trying to control myself from saying anything that would make a scene.

What was her problem, seriously, picking on an innocent toddler? Granted, the toddler was big enough to walk on his own, but did it inconvenience her that the mother chose to put him in a pram? No. Sure, everyone’s entitled to their own opinions but they should jail people with diseased mouths like hers because these are the kind of people who could potentially start a riot.

If anything, she’s the one who’s disgusting. Self-righteous moron. I hope she breaks another leg. We’ll see who’s the big baby then.

It angers me to no end that some elderly and disabled think that just because they’ve lost function in their limbs, they can compensate it by over-using their mouths. I’m all for them having the right of way, but since when do the elderly and disabled get a discount on manners?

I witnessed an NSman get slammed by an old uncle in the train once for not giving up his seat to a pregnant lady. Another lady who was sitting in the priority seat had already given up the seat to her. This uncle apparently thought that the lady shouldn’t have to be the one giving up her seat because there was an able-bodied NSman around who should’ve done it.

What bullshit is that? If you want to talk about chivalry, why don’t YOU give up your seat, no matter how old you are, instead of pointing fingers at others? Whoever said chivalry had an age limit?

It’s not as if nobody gave up their seat to the pregnant lady, or didn’t want to. It’s just that the lady in the priority seat was the first to. And she was in the priority seat, afterall.

The uncle didn’t stop there, he kept on jabbering in earshot of possibly the whole bloody train about how the guy should be ashamed of himself, being in army uniform and all, about how kids nowadays have no manners.

And you wonder why.

Top 3.

December 17, 2009

1. DSLR

2. Sewing machine

3. A vacation

I can barely contain my excitement!

And I am sooo way over my head in delight because I’ve just finished sewing my first piece of garment ever! Although it’s admittedly far from perfect, it’s an historic moment! I’m feeling a tad like an idiot for ending all my sentences with exclamation marks but who cares!

I have newfound respect for excellently sewn garments and their tailors. I used a wide elastic band for my skirt, and mind you, it wasn’t exactly easy to handle.

I don’t know what possessed my mother to suggest I use the Singer sewing machine that we have at home that belonged to my late grandma to practice my sewing, because it’s practically an ancient relic! I can’t wait to get one of my own.

Have I already mentioned my excitement?

Can’t be bothered with a title right now #01

November 24, 2009

Wow.

I’ve been incredibly busy these few weeks that I’ll probably need another few weeks to recover from the fatigue. I’ve been dividing my time between work, school, clinical appointments and…. lo and behold, dressmaking.

Yes folks, I’m absolutely thrilled that I’ve finally gotten round to joining dressmaking class! It’s something I’ve wanted to do for quite some time now, because I’ve always thought it important to have some basic lifelong skill to fall back to. And if by some stroke of luck I am actually any good at it, I’m thrilled I won’t have any more bad tailoring experiences. Trust me, it is such a heartpain to have you scouting for fabrics endlessly and paying money for it, only for it to be destroyed by some halfboiled tailor.

I’ve also had to make visits to various specialists namely in the lipid, dietetics and rheumatology departments. I was rather amused that the dietitian assigned to me was, well…fat. Another one to add to the list of ironies, but hey at least she’s not the one having to see a dietitian for high cholesterol.

So imagine that. The last two weeks saw me being outdoors more than twelve goddamn hours a day, almost everyday. I’m just glad the busy period is over. School’s out, so I won’t be seeing the little devils till next year. That also means the canteen is closed – more reason for me to start bringing my wholemeal sandwich with lettuce, tuna, tomatoes, low fat cheese, green pepper and a whole lot of yummy in between. But that’s if I can condition myself to wake up fifteen minutes earlier to make it.

I’m excited, the last wholemeal sandwich phase resulted in a slimmer face and tummy. Seriously!

Pillpopper.

November 24, 2009

Prednisolone

Mefenamic acid

Hydroxychloroquine

Calcium

Omega-3

Garlic

Glucosamine

Collagen

Fibre

Grapeseed

Colostrum

Nigella Sativa

 

9725/AIDA

November 4, 2009

I was so delighted to find detailed info on my Great Eastern Women’s 10k run here!

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Because 52% of all participants finished ahead of me and 48% behind me, I suppose it’s safe to say my performance that day was average. I’m fairly satisfied, given that I wasn’t really fully prepared. Before the race, I went the distance only twice – 8k and 10k, and that was it.

But I’m not so much about the timing, although it does matter to me a certain degree. I joined this time to challenge myself to do it alone, which I did in a decent timing, a bonus.

I would have been even more alone if the boyfriend didn’t come along for moral support. So thank you! And also for being my personal baggage deposit, heh. <3

So what’s next?

Attack of the jitters.

October 31, 2009

Last year it rained the night before the army half marathon. And now it’s raining the night before my 10k race. It’s happening again – the cold and clammy uneasiness, the jitters. I wonder how many races I’ll have to join before this feeling evaporates.

I hope it stops raining soon.

We’ll be back after these messages.

September 29, 2009

If there’s one thing I absolutely dread about Eid, it’s the fatigue. And that exam around the corner isn’t helping either.

Be back soonest.

If you were just wondering.

September 7, 2009

I was inspired by Shyanne of the practicality of a birthday wishlist.

  1. Lanvin Rumeur II or Juicy Couture’s Viva La Juicy
  2. The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera
  3. MAC lipglass in Lust or Revealing. Or anything from MAC, really.
  4. Puffy eye serum
  5. Exfoliating body scrub
  6. Brown leather belt
  7. Flats in size 7
  8. Omega-3 DHA 1000mg fish oil (soft gel capsules)
  9. A haircut or colour
  10. A black/tan/grey slim fit cardigan
  11. A running tee or sports bra

Needless to say, I wouldn’t love you less if you didn’t get me anything, any of these, or if you got me something else.

<3

Byebye beeflover.

September 7, 2009

The prospect of getting old is becoming more and more real as the health concerns pile up. I worry that I’m having the worst bout of arthritis since eight years ago, I worry about the hint of varicose vein on the back of my leg that someone pointed out to me and now, I have to worry about being at high risk of getting heart diseases and stroke because of high cholesterol. And I worry that my worrying will age me even further before time.

Sometimes I can’t help feeling like I’m trapped in the body of an ailing 80-year old. There are so many things I’ve yet to accomplish, and I just wonder how long this body can keep up.

The results from a recent health screen revealed that my cholesterol levels are atrocious. To give you a rough idea, these were the given ranges to classify your LDL (bad cholesterol) level: optimal, desirable, borderline high, high, very high. And mine, without giving so much as a warning, falls immediately under the very high range.

To be honest, I was half expecting this. Not because I’ve been thrashing my diet and eating with wild abandon, but rather, because of genetics. See, my mother suffered a mild stroke not too long ago because of high LDL levels. A chunk of the cholesterol deposits lining her arteries broke away and traveled to her heart and then to her brain, where, thankfully it dispersed into smaller pieces. Had it not dispersed, that chunk could’ve blocked blood supply to her brain, causing brain damage. Following the stroke, my mother was referred to a dietitian. Not surprisingly (because I know how my mom eats), the dietitian found nothing wrong with her diet, and even commended her for eating healthy. So what was contributing to the high cholesterol? We got to know through tests later that by default, my mom’s liver was producing more bad cholesterol than the average person. The doctors warned that it’s possible for this characteristic to be genetic, and recommended to have us children checked as well.

I’m genuinely wary. The possibility of things going awry is very near and real, not only because my own mother had a brush with stroke, but also because my cholesterol level isn’t far off from my mother’s when she suffered it. And so now for the sake of health, I’m forced to significantly reduce or at best, forgo foods high in saturated fats (or high cholesterol foods as they call it). I don’t mind cutting back on other high cholesterol foods, but it’ll be like giving up the world to give up red meat and cheese. Everything that tastes so good I could die has beef and/or cheese in it. Pizza, pasta, dengdeng, black pepper steak, oreo cheesecake, the list is infinite!

Contrary to popular belief, you don’t have to be overweight to have high cholesterol. It has more to do with what you eat than how much you eat it. But if you eat high amounts of foods high in saturated fats, then needless to say that accounts for it too.

Exercise, unfortunately, cannot lower LDL levels. It can only increase your HDL level (the good cholesterol). So there really is no other way to lower your LDL levels except to take to a stringent diet or take cholesterol lowering medication.

I’ve lost a bit of faith in medicine, though. I used to have high regard for doctor’s medicine, I used to think it would take care of everything. But I’ve come to believe strongly about the side effects that come with medicine. And I’ve experienced this myself in arguably the most painful scenario of my life yet. Back in secondary school when I was diagnosed with arthritis, I saw a specialist and he gave me some medicine. Then, only a few joints were affected, but after taking the medication which were supposed to relieve me, my other joints which weren’t affected started to swell as well. This significantly affected my mobility. Simple everyday tasks became excruciating and difficult. This went on for a number of months and in the end I got so fed up popping so many pills a day that I just stopped. Miraculously after that, I got better on my own and I didn’t pop a single pill to relieve my arthritis for eight years.

I’m not completely taking an anti-medicine stand here — I’m now on steroids to relieve my arthritis that has decided to resurface after eight years. But I alternate it with natural supplements. What I’m saying is I think we shouldn’t be a hundred percent dependent on medicine, especially long-term medication. There are other natural alternatives we can look to, and they don’t come with side effects. The most recent and personal success story I can think of is that of my own mother. Some time ago she decided to stop her cholesterol medication. Not only were they incredibly expensive, they didn’t seem to lower her levels significantly. So she looked to natural alternatives, and began taking a fibre supplement called BioGreen. A few months into it, she had her cholesterol checked, and it went from ‘very high’ to ‘high’. This might not seem like much, but it is in fact great progress because my mother’s cholesterol level has never budged from the very high range, even with medication.

Ignorance is bliss, so I suppose that’s the reason the idea of going for general medical checkups don’t even cross most our minds. You feel jolly and fit as a fiddle, so why go looking for things to worry about? Admittedly it wasn’t until my company held a complimentary basic health screening that I was reminded how important it is to know the status of our own health.

Sure, some things in life are better left to chance. But health definitely isn’t one of them.

Letter to God.

August 22, 2009

Dear God,

Please grant me peace this Ramadhan, because there’s only so much agony I can take.